Happy Hearts Day! =) I just didn't enjoy this day. Though I'm hoping someday I would feel the love and sweetness around me. I'll be fine. Masyado nang madaming nangyari so I can't get enough time to share it. Just busy anyway. Well, at the office. Nkakapagod din. Pero ayos lang. Everything's worth it naman. I remember nga pala, I'm hanging out together with my girl friends, then we just had to talk about someone who's my one and only inspiration and the girl who took up that mask. I feel so angry with him/her. Para lang akong nagmumukang tanga. One day, if malaman ko what's real, naku, di ko alam magagawa ko. Its been so long para ibigay ko sa kanya attention ko then it was just a "non-sense" lang pala. Yung feeling na, ang tagal tagal mo palang naging tanga sa kanya. I just keep on waiting to him, I felt that excitement when the time comes we will meet and get to know each other well. Until malaman ko na lang hindi pala sya totoo. Then I just thought, "kaya pala". Kaya pala hidi nya magawang makipagkita saken. Friend ko pa yung nanloloko saken. That's bullsh*t. Pero I had a little feeling na sana totoo talaga sya. Kung hindi, well, he's just a fantasy anyway. I feel sad, 'cause I really don't have that special someone FOR NOW. Can I just say goodbye for now. 'til next time =).

Lonely but Happy

I couldn't perceive the real happiness in me. I felt like there's something wrong and incomplete. As in may kulang talaga. There are times naman na masaya ako, yun tipong sumosobra na yung tawa ko, parang wala ng katapusan. Literally, I've been acting like that since then, doesn't seem like i could laugh like that as much as I can haha! and others said that wala sa muka ko na ganun yung gagawin ko. nah! that's just me! Well, time will come I will find my happiness, in you, hehe, siguro sa magiging new career ko, pero sa'yo, ewan i think it's a very very big question mark. I will not blame you anyway, nag-eexpect pa din talaga ako eehh, kase naman, sorry na. hayy pwedeng Christmas wish ko we could meet na talaga. Miss na kita. Yan na lang muna masasabi ko, kase ayaw kong isipin mo na, ang bilis naman nito. =D but that's ok, I understand naman. =D I'm happy na din na hindi mo ko nakakalimutan. And I know that you're happy right now with someone else...(bitter)...hindi kase talaga un maiiwasan, kase hindi naman talaga tayo tunay na magkakilala...(ang dami ko ng sinasabi, haha!)...(kinakabahan ako, baka bigla mong mabasa 'to)...I've wrote this naman to express what I really feel deep inside, hindi ko naman masabi sayo directly, parang kaseng awkward. =D I just want you to know that, I'm still here waiting for you and loving you endlessly...(hehehe)...Pag dumating yung time na nagkita na tayo, naku, hindi ko alam kung san ako pupunta o kung anong magiging itsura ko...(hahaha)...basta! way too excited ba. =D Pwedeng mag-stop muna dito, parang IKAW dapat yung title eh...(haha)... Still, I've been tasting the soda I drunk a while ago. Naka-tatlo ako, hehe, masarap naman kase...(T.I)...alam nyo yun! hehe. Nakakahilo din pala 'yun. hay! What a blast Sunday. Another night's over, Lord thanks for strengthen me as always. You're the best! A big advantage to keep on holding on and stay strong. Happy weekdays ahead. =D I'm happy standing independently. =) #sexyfreesingleandreadytomingle LOL kiddin'

LSS lang talaga.

New Start Up

naku, kamusta naman.. it's been a long time, ive decided to write again this past few days, but then i forgot, suddenly this time, someone was like, persuading me to write now.. kasi he mentioned nya then i got hook of it,, sabi ko sige na, magba-blog na ko, now na.. hehe.. matagal tagal na rin eh no?! I'm typing this while watching tv too,, super heavy rain ngayong gabi..i missed a lot of topics to share.. bawi na lang ako.. starting tonight.. I'm feeling uncomfortable today, but pretty, haha! =D goodluck saken on monday.. initial and final interview.. new job, new company, new team, new officemates,, lahat magiging new, hehehe.. new life too.. I'm studying Japanese language today.. hehehehe.. why? Secret??!! well its just a part of my new job too..parang sure na sure na magwowork na nga ako ah,, hehehe! ganyan talaga.. Oo nga pala.. uhmm,, sige next time ko na lang ikukwento hehehe.. eto nalang muna ise-sahre ko,, think of a number, then double it, add six, half it then take away the nember you started with and your answer is three.. hehehe.. galing no?!hehe hay naku, wala lang talaga ko magawa,, para bang nawawala ako sa mood,, di pa naman ako inaantok.. maybe tomorrow,cool na ulit hehehe.. sige.. have a goodnight.. 'til next time.. =)

sigh

She

She is the One who is there for your sorrow
She is the one who can count on for tomorrow
When you are afraid to cry out your tears
She'll be the One who leers you to strengthen up against your fears.

She is the One who holds your hand tight when you're in pain.
She is the One who symbolizes your umbrella in the rain.
When you are all alone standing in the dark
She'll be the One who tell you things that lightens up your heart.

She is the One who learns you how to roll
She is the One who feeds your inner soul
When you are out of ins-piracy
She'll be the One to open your eyes and see all the other opportunities.

The word She is so wonderful
So pure, this can't be nothing else then femininity.
On her all of our lives rely
She is so peacefully as a butterfly.

Just Another Ordinary Day

Everyday we wake up and live our lives
And each second of a minute a person dies.

We don't stand still by the things we do.
Can someone tell me why we go,'cause I don't have a clue.

Our Lord is the one who points out when to go
And when the time comes our body leaves our soul.

Everyday for us is just another ordinary day.
But maybe tomorrow I'm not standing here but I'm far away.

Regrets

Lost a very special person in my life again, an another lesson learned.
Maybe its better for me to change my strategies or else I will get burned.
I already expected this pain would return and now its confirmed.

In my mind I can't handle the struggles, maybe its better to give in.
All I ever wanted was somebody to share my feelings, to give my loving.
Just like everybody else I just want to be kept warm or is that a sin?

Over and over I keep wondering where I went wrong
Or was this lesson for me meant to be all along.
I just know you've turned your back on me and you're gone.
There's nothing I can do about it, just sitting here crying thru dawn.

Just tell me what to do, I swear I'll do my very best.
It wasn't because of all the money, not even about the sex.
I don't want to see how this wonderful fairy tale ends.
My conscious dumped me in the cold, ain't got nothing left but regrets.